cotton love: a poem


shove cotton in my mouth and don’t let me speak,
but please don’t leave me to choke


i want u to love me in the same way u ignore me,
in a way that’s never fleeting or broke


my only asset is fake intimacy,
though i’ve never known anything more


that’s how i keep u from leaving me,
even if you’ll win this war


i hope i can be forgiven for speaking this way,
it seems i have ignored your emotions


i’m sorry for not knowing how to articulate,
your “love” has its limits in my commotion


i will break one day and ruin us both and my reputation,
i hope you don’t blame me though,
you were part of this making.